Shall We Play the Hologram?

Beginning in 2015, realisations about the structure of our world came to me in meditations, in dreams, in memories, in psychedelic trips, during tantric sexual practices, and through channelling (I say more about that term below). They arrived in fairly large blocks, yet for some three years they remained torn and fragmentary, and I could not "gather it all into one heap". And then, in 2018, many pieces of the puzzle came together into a single coherent picture.

You may remember the famous line from The Queen of Spades: "What is our life? A game!" That is exactly what would not leave me during those three years. Later I learned that the Infinite Game is another name in use for this game, because our immortal Soul plays it eternally and endlessly, merely changing bodies from incarnation to incarnation. The game is also often called the Simulation — because reality behaves like a well-optimised programme.

What follows is a very much shortened description of this game, which I have called the Hologram.

And so: within an interactive video programme called the Hologram — which is nothing other than a projection made of light — there exists a collective under the banner of "Humanity", living on a playing field called Earth. Each counter of a particular colour is one life within a given set of conditions. Your Soul throws the dice, and when your parents make love you get your chance to step onto the playing field — to be born. To reach the goal one may act in several zones of the game at once (in different times) with several counters (lives).

But one counter always remains at Home and conducts the others — this is our Higher Self!

Author's note: I joined with my Higher Self from time to time and could in this way influence the course of the game. And in January 2023 a complete merging took place, which in the spiritual world is called Ascension. One might say that only by joining with it did I become aware of myself as a real player. Most people, until they too become aware, are simply NPCs (non-player characters). The term comes from computer games and refers to characters with a prescribed set of programmes, controlled by the computer and possessing no intelligence of their own. In different games they serve as extras, or perform simple functions: shopkeeper, builder, soldier, guard. A pawn, plain and simple.

Most people do not hear the calls of their Higher Self and spin round in the game round after round, yet keep missing the true Goal, and life after life do the very same thing, though in different variations.

This means that they must rid themselves of karma and of negative emotions, give up outdated patterns of behaviour, and so on.

The more counters you have on the playing field (for seen from the highest level, everything happens at once), the more you have to attend to — but the more astonishing the result. And if you manage to accomplish it all, a miracle occurs: your full creative potential opens up. And then a new Golden Age begins for you personally, a new game. More and more players will join you.

In the end you simply will not recognise the original game — it will have changed completely!

The programme allows for choice. It has a main storyline, but the player may make their own decisions and, in the end, no longer knows where the game will lead them or how it will finish. If the end of the game were known in advance, it would lose its edge and its fascination. The game is built so that the player does not know it is merely a game, and for this their memory is blocked for a time. Not erased, mind you — only blocked, and it is to be restored once the game is over.

Author's note: the restoration of my memory is now proceeding at an accelerated pace, and so much is coming back that I barely manage to take it in and write it down. At times our sluggish human brain simply cannot process and interpret it all.

The playing field Earth is the only Zone of Free Will, and at their creation human beings were originally granted infinite potential, since no one knew what they were capable of. But when their creators understood what this meant, measures were taken to limit that potential. The Creators grew afraid of their own creation and were obliged to impose strict bounds. Because of this, a person's creative force is now used to no more than twenty per cent, while eighty per cent is its limitation (in our terms, suffering). This suffering leads to rigid patterns of behaviour, to karma and obligations, to a great quantity of negative emotions that bind a person hand and foot, constraining their freedom more and more.

And so, in order to return to freedom and to 80–100% of one's creative energy — that is, to unlimited Free Will — one must be rid of these fetters, and for this a person must put forward new rules for themselves personally.

To disconnect from the rules of the Old Energy and switch over to the New Energy, one must set a new scale and new parameters for one's own life.

It follows that the original life programme must be rewritten completely. People are to overcome their initial programmes and artificial limitations and to step out of the paradigm of suffering. Then enormous forces will be released in them.

Author's note: it really is so — the forces released are simply immeasurable. Kundalini starts to blaze with terrible power, the body needs less food and less sleep, all the ailments pass, and creative energy arrives on an incredible scale.

The collective "Humanity" consists of two parts — aliens and earthlings — and the aliens in turn divide into many groups. Hence the longing some people feel for their stellar homeland… All people are genuinely people and differ only in their origin and their past. The past of earthlings is confined to Earth, and that past is far longer than we think. It spans millions of years, not tens of thousands. Earth has seen many different cultures in many epochs, and there has been time enough to accumulate karma…

The aliens, for their part, have brought with them galactic and/or cosmic karma as well, which must be redeemed just as the earthly kind must.

This explains why purification can be so hard for them: they are dragging extra "sacks" along with them. Earth has taken blows of fate dealt partly from outside, and these led to karmic burdens on the extraterrestrial races, who have now come to help Earth accomplish its Ascent and thereby redeem their own karma.

Author's note: it really did always seem to me that my sacks of crap were a great deal bigger than other people's, and that getting rid of them took me longer and was harder than it was for others.

The aliens are no more important than the people of Earth, nor the other way round. All need one another. For this reason the aliens cannot simply vanish and return to their own reality. They must remain until everything has been brought together for the good of all participants. Both "races", both collectives, work here hand in hand, whether they are aware of it or not. Some aliens very much want to return Home, and here an inviolable rule applies: to return they must reach a particular frequency of heart vibration. And to reach such a frequency one must work on oneself long and hard and open one's heart (this is an indispensable condition).

Author's note: that I am an alien I sensed precisely in 2015, and it was then that memories of Home began to surface, along with a mad longing for it. Everything there is altogether unlike Earth — but perhaps new articles about that will ripen in time.

The Engine of Creation is located on Earth, and therefore this planet is to become a manifested, material place for the Divine Source, a place of power of a special kind, a place of pilgrimage for the whole Universe! A "place of power" is nothing other than a place with a higher vibration than its surroundings. It is therefore closer to the Divine Source and is a sacred place.

One might put it this way: whoever controls Earth controls the Divine Source! The new aim of the aliens has become the transformation of Earth into such a source!

The uniqueness of all people — both aliens in human guise and earthlings — extends across many levels and consists, above all, in the capacity to generate vibrations of love across an extraordinarily wide range and at an extraordinary intensity. One day there will be no difference left on Earth between earthlings and aliens. There will be only people with fully opened potential. Such is the goal!

On the playing field there are always beings from the higher dimensions, with high vibrations. Their purpose is to keep the pathways open. As a rule they act as observers and as channels (mediums). When needed, they let energy — that is, information — through this channel from the higher dimensions, always when great changes are at hand, as now. It has always been so, but their number is growing by the day, as can be seen from the books written through channelling (from the English word channel). For these books are the result of channels opened into the higher dimensions.

In order to keep the channels open, a medium must continue their development without pause.

Work on oneself is essential, for the development of the surrounding world never stops.

Author's note: for different mediums, and for me as well, there are several ways of entering one's channel. I began to enter mine through tantric sexual practices. Very often during orgasm I would be "taken" and loaded with the missing pieces of information — and this article is the result, first written in 2018 but corrected and expanded in 2026.

When a person awakens — and it makes no difference whether they are an earthling or an alien — they change the parameters of their life programme; that is, they push back the limits set for them until those limits disappear altogether. And here something truly interesting and wonderful happens: when a person has no boundaries left, they become boundless, and since the whole is in essence "merely" a Hologram, there are no other boundaries beyond the original ones.

In other words, this means that an awakened person carries within them an utterly unexplored potential, of which no one knows where or how far it can and will extend.

What will people create when they fully recognise this immense force within themselves and begin to use it? By some accounts we currently use only between 1 and 20 per cent of our creative force. For it was artificially limited when the Creators discovered what potential they had given their creations and how it affected their environment. But now, step by step, all the limitations are falling away, and the Creators have become curious to see where this will lead.

When more and more people became able to glimpse the reality on the "other" side, there arose a need for Awakening, for a conscious and accelerated Ascent, since people — be they earthlings or aliens — are less and less taken in by deception. They need light: the light of revelation, of wisdom, of love and of the knowing of the All-One! Many aliens were "artificially" awakened in order to help earthlings use their potential for the good of all, for the good of the whole — the holographic and the "outer".

The true purpose of human beings is to carry everywhere the extraordinarily strong energy of heart and love that is proper to them.

First it will spread here, on Earth, and will create a New time, and then it will move further on. The more awakened people activate their vibrations of love, the more strongly Earth will shift in the direction of the Ascent. Such a shift will carry All-That-Is upward with it, lifting it to an unprecedented level of existence. That is the goal, and for it the heart energy of the human being is needed. By the original programme of the game, it can reach an intensity this cycle of existence has neither seen nor felt before.

No one yet knows the true potential of human love!

So — shall we play?